BuildYourDynamic “BDSM Archetype Quiz”

Hello beautifull people 💋

So there’s a quiz going around FetLife and X lately, and I thought to my self,

“what a beautifully timed opportunity to explore my roleplay preferences.”

The Prediction

I think I’ve said this once before, but I use the honorary title of “Mistress” in it original etymological context, not like other Dommes do in their specialties. I am a Sensual/Soft Domme, but I’m more in to the “Master” and “Goddess” archetypal energies that ooze from the Mistress’s original etymological definition as the female form of “Master”…It not only has a nice ring to it, but it encapsulates a wide spectrum of my powers. A Master of many talents, but here in the sensual confines of my kinky world, I’m a conduit. Not a magician.

The Nurturer

I chose Nurturer because I know I’m not the opposite. I know too much about energy and its laws…and this is no shade to the more “hard” dommes. I’m highly sensitive, I know my lane basically. If it costs me more than I am receiving, it is a “no thank you” from me.

The closest I would get to violence may either be orgasm denial or orgasm encouragement, you know, 0 or 100. It’s the hedonist in me to receive indirect pleasure from serving the passions of my partner from a nurturing and spiritual relationship (sometimes) but don’t deny the diva in me who prefers to lay against a pillow or queen her way to her peak. Plus I have Mars in Libra, I’m bound to influence the balance of the dynamic regardless—reciprocation is destined.

What Is A Service Top?

A Service Top is someone who derives satisfaction and fulfillment from meeting their partner’s needs, desires, and fantasies. They prioritize the well-being and pleasure of their submissive or bottom partner, often taking on tasks such as providing aftercare, ensuring consent and communication are maintained throughout the scene, and tailoring their actions to cater to their partner’s preferences.

Unlike traditional dominants who may focus on their own pleasure and control, a Service Top’s main goal is to serve and support their partner, creating a nurturing and fulfilling experience for both individuals involved. This dynamic can involve a range of activities, from physical play to emotional support, depending on the specific desires and boundaries of the participants.

Service Tops play a crucial role in BDSM relationships by emphasizing communication, empathy, and mutual respect. They demonstrate that dominance can be expressed through acts of care and service, challenging traditional power dynamics and promoting a more collaborative and fulfilling experience for all parties involved.

— Consent Culture, “Glossary: Service Top”

A Service Top is a Dominant with a pleasure kink. I receive pleasure in giving pleasure. How I receive pleasure in giving pleasure is actually nonsexual in a way, though sexual pleasures are a part of it. It’s so multidimensional and complex, I struggle to find the words that honor my pleasures…Just note that this dynamic, just like other dynamics, can vary wildly depending on the agreement between the Dominant and Submissive.

I have Venus in Virgo, if any sign knows what it is like to arouse—and be aroused—by services gifted and received, it would be me. It was one of the heavier things that pushed me out of the vanilla world. The analytical nature of Virgo coloring the passionate forms of Venus is bound to find certain “duties” and “customs” of their culture as sexually arousing:

• Doing dishes

• Laundry

• Running mundane errands in traffic

Just to list a few.

And if you’re curious, yes.

Yes, I find it (*puts hair in a ponytail* type) sexy.

Differences Between A Sensual Domme And A Service Top?

According to the internet forums, a sensual domme focuses on the psychological aspects of Dominance, creating an emotional connection and guiding the experience.

A service top primarily provides physical sensations and pleasure to their partner, often prioritizing the bottom’s enjoyment.

Both tend to overlap, but their intentions are what set them apart.

As a Sensual Dominant with a focus on my Priestesscraft, I mainly intend to invoke my sensuality, emotional connection, and psychological play to enhance the experience. My priestesscraft typically serves as a energetic bridge between the Divine and the community—offering deep insight and guidance, performing rituals, and fostering spiritual growth. My role involves ancient practices and alchemizing their properties to meet the needs of diverse communities—both shadow and light.

My Kink Profile Results: The Iconoclast

I wish there was more information available with the structure of this quiz, but I have never been one to shy from an intellectual challenge. 😉

An iconoclast is defined as
“a person who does not conform to generally accepted standards or customs”
and
“a person who destroys religious images or opposes their veneration”

With a deeper search, I found a definition that describes it as: “an iconoclast is a person who challenges or criticizes established beliefs, practices, or institutions. The term originates from the Greek word "eikonoklastēs," meaning "image destroyer." Historically, it referred to individuals who opposed the veneration of religious icons”

It’s synonymous with the terms “bohemian”, “nonconformist”, and “heretic”…so it’s not wrong so far. I definitely thrive on my rebellions against societal conditioning, I love to innovate what is dead and outdated…and there’s a lot of it in the mundane public, right?

If it wasn’t for their brief description of a Service Top, I would think I was in the wrong place though. Mostly because the 70 questions that led to this result were…pretty vague to say the least. There’s one question where they ask if I’ve seen kink content that I believe I could do better, and this might be one of them. 🤔🤫
But that’s normally how I see the world:

1. Become inspired.

2. Create an innovation.

So of course I mean this respectively.

The Defining Functions of An Iconoclast

Excerpt from “Do You Want to Be an Iconoclast?” by Dr. Andrea Furst

So if you want to do things differently to the rest, here are three functions that differentiate the brain of an iconoclast from other people:

1. Perception: “Iconoclasts see things differently than other people. Literally. They see things differently because their brains do not fall into efficiency traps as much as the average person’s brain.”

2. Fear response: Iconoclasts may experience fears such as fear of uncertainty and fear of public ridicule, however they do not let them inhibit their actions.

3. Social intelligence: Iconoclasts can sell their ideas to other people. “In order to sell one’s ideas, one must create a positive reputation that will draw people toward something that is initially unfamiliar and potentially scary. Familiarity helps build one’s reputation.”

The last trait, social intelligence, reminds me of my first livestream on Substack. I made a statement about my dream job, that I posted on Instagram.

It reminded me of where I was when I was doing this, I was actually taking the initiative to conquer a fear of mine, a fear of my voice. I had a severe ear infection as a baby which affected how I hear my self. So when I talk, my voice sounds deeper to me than when it is recorded. For a long time, I thought what I heard was the same as what others heard…and I didn’t like it. So this list, my shadow work from last year, and my quiz results confirm to me that not only am I a rebel at heart—but this is more than “kink as therapy”, this is more aligned with “getting out of my own way.” As a sacral dominant being, the balance and strength of my flow state is essential in every thing I do, and this requires me to look at my subconscious fears from a different Light.

If you decide to take the quiz your self, do you see any similarities along the results and your predictions?

The Owner (And Her Favorite Furniture)

Only 7% (7 is one of my lucky numbers) less than Service Top, my secondary archetype is Owner. I thought it was going to be aligned with race play, which is a HUGE HARD LIMIT for me…so I was feeling a bit uneasy. I didn’t know what to think, especially since the website seemed 30%-40% complete, I didn’t know what I was in for.

I tend to comprehend FemDom honorifics fairly easy, such as Goddess and Princess. Certain dynamics I’m still unfamiliar with because I’m not in to fetishes involving pain. One day I’ll take a deep dive just for fun, but I don’t see that day coming anytime soon.

“The owner in this dynamic is responsible for the well-being and care of the property, ensuring that their needs and limits are respected. Communication, trust, and negotiation are crucial in establishing and maintaining a healthy Owner Property Dynamic. Safe words and regular check-ins are common practices to ensure that both partners feel safe and respected throughout the dynamic.

Examples of activities within this dynamic may include protocols for addressing the owner, tasks or chores assigned to the property, physical restraints, and other forms of control or discipline as agreed upon by both parties.

It is important to note that consent is paramount in any BDSM dynamic, including the Owner Property Dynamic, and both partners have the right to negotiate, set boundaries, and withdraw consent at any time.”

— Consent Culture, “Glossary: Owner”

What’s wild to me about this archetype is the fact it is very similar to another kink I enjoy called “High Protocol”, which I researched a few weeks prior to this quiz. It all clicked at that point. High Protocol is akin to the ritualization of power exchange—beautifully aligned with my high priestess reclamation. Obedience training, collaring, orgasm denial…but with elegance and a royal touch.

I’m simply in control in all ways—the nurturance and requirements of aftercare in my dynamics are “obvious” to me (thank you, Venus in Virgo)—but it’s complete power exchange, not simply control. To prove this interpretation, the third trait, “Puppeteer” solidifies the context of the first two.

So, what did we learn today? We learned what an iconoclast means according to the vanilla perspective, but how does this pertain to kink? I think it’s pretty self-explanatory, but it’s kink. If iconoclast is etymologically defined as “image destroyer,” I get the vibe of a very Lilith or Scorpionic undertone of reclamation through power. I also get an Aquarian vibe, especially if we consider my solo-polyamory journey, the consideration for the group is innate and effortless. We’re destroying the structure and status quo that we deem restrictive and destructive to the cause. The “cause” in question depends on the agreement between the Dominant and Submissive, so this definition for iconoclast as a kinky archetype is very fitting.

My Desired Partner: The Vassal

With the application of more context clues, I was able to guess the definition of my desired submissive, which I think both know wasn’t that difficult. According to Simple History Meanings:

“A vassal was a landholder who had entered into a formal relationship with a lord. In return for receiving land or protection, the vassal agreed to provide loyalty and specific services, often including military support.”

So, in my kinky world being established: a vassal wouldn’t necessarily be a landholder, but maybe a “rod holder” who enters a formal relationship with me, their Majesty. In return for receiving my affectionate cruelty and sensual domination, the vassal agrees to provide loyalty and specific services, often including sexual favors (my own form of “military support” 😉).

I would give this quiz a 4/10 more or less because the archetypes chosen, the one-liner descriptions, and the bare website is not enough for the average individual to commit to doing the research, or even care to share the quiz. There’s 70 questions that might lead you to an archetype you haven’t heard of before, and they don’t supply adequate information for. At that point, I wouldn’t blame any body for simply forgetting this quiz exists.

There’s too much to guess or feel “eh” about, and when the hype wears off, you’re simply staring at information you already knew. It reminds me of the Hipster Era, and how we went through a moment of time where things were being renamed and branded to be more trendy than they were…it’s the same vibe to me.

The least they could’ve done before going public was commit to the lengthy list of archetypes they created in order for us to have a better understanding of our results. Then, I would’ve rated the website as a 7/10 for its originality…but that’s a rating that needs to be earned.

I had fun, I learned a bit more about my self and how I like my men. 🤭🥰

Ever since I encountered my first fine man, I knew they were going to be my favorite furniture, my favorite thrones…what can I say?

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before I manifest physically,

it’s called doing The Work 😉🪄✨

I’m so deep in my alchemy,

these lurking spirits

think they have anxiety

when in actuality—

in our multidimensionality—

they traded their blessings

trying to keep up with me.

Oh they have questions,

they fail to believe it can be achieved…

but it’s the dominance in my energy…

but it’s the mastery of my abilities…

that makes my power so triggering.

When you live in a flow state,

there’s much you can’t relate.

Some people will think you’re great,

others will choose to spew hate.

I’m not moved by either at this rate.

What I want requires accountability

from the collective community

But here on the West, I find it best

to leave them to their own stupidity.

It’s not my calling, it’s not my destiny.

So of course, haphazardly,

they see my Light and it sparks curiosity.

It sparks changes in the brain,

leading to my superiority.

Did you really have that idea, darlin’

or was it telepathy?

Every body seems to want power,

But it never comes free…

The sacrifices to be this magnetizing

are no thing short of emotionally agonizing…

But they don’t want to hear all that,

they don’t want to hear my plights…

They’d rather never picture those

lonely nights where I forged my Light

from Hope and Faith and Love

from reminders of what happens below also happens above…

They just want the glamour, the adoration.

If only they started doing The Work sooner,

imagine how much further they would’ve been…

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It’s my destiny

to be

the most enlightened me

I can be,

to live prosperously

from my creativity.

The “hate” they have for me

is simply a form of jealousy

because their love

wouldn’t nourish me.

What I nourish within me

allowed these creations and insights to be…

…we love our selves differently.

Fortunately,

Self lovin’ is our responsibility.

No body can do it for you or for me…

So I fix my crown and let them be.

Maybe it’s just me, but the “patterns” of societal conditioning and systemic oppression have been visible to me since I began reading at 5. As long as I could remember, I asked a plethora of questions too. As a young girl, it didn’t take me long to realize many didn’t live life similarly to my self. That they not only refused to ask questions or read for leisure, but only cared to befriend me to receive the answers to our schoolwork so they can appease the teacher…no thing truly different as an adult. People appease their system in exchange for materials they don’t need. As long as I’ve been incarnated, it’s been an evident problem and it wasn’t until 2020 the cycle was heavily interrupted. I’ve been unraveling. Evolving. I am claiming my gifts as they come online, and they proceed to tell me the importance of letting go and letting the Divine do the heavy work. I look at my skin, my hair…I look at the collective spirit being projected moment to moment, and it’s clear I have no thing to do with this.

I checked the astrology, numerology, oracle sessions—but what I feel in my spirit is true. I’ve been initiated beyond the majority of the collective and now, my mission consists of perfecting my boundaries, sense of Self-sourcing, and relationship with giving. I have little to no interest in supplying refuge from the disastrous events taking place at this moment.

Why?

Because that’s simply how karma works.

Not every thing is destined for every body. When you know what is and isn’t destined for you, you release your self from accruing karmic debt by minding your own business—literally.

I am not destined to remedy the constructed conditions others created for themselves or fell victim to. In fact, many people who are emotionally impacted by the collective suffering they see taking place are the same ones who are supposed to be actively building the advocacy—rather than protesting and begging the same death trap for basic human decency—rather than becoming emotionally attached and burdened by the persistence of media manipulation. My calling is not playing Captain Save’Em, my calling is to lead a sexy, powerfull example in sovereign, sensual living.

Where I stand as a Afro-Latina is out of sight of those riddled with confusion, desperation, and despair. There’s melanated women who find pride in stating, “black women built this country” and even if that was correct, I bet my organs it wasn’t a preferred choice.

Personally, as I near 30, I’m no longer moved by the staged events and chaotic power struggles this society entertains. It’s like having a friend who can’t get over their ex, no matter how many men after him have broke her heart. It’s nauseating.

Food comes from the ground, water can be harvested from clouds, homes can be built with hemp. If the systems in place really wanted to, they would…right?

A lot of what’s taking places is orchestrated delay, beyond the surface of the “governmental powers” mask lies sinister multidimensional power structures at play.

It’s grown boring, it’s grown to be too monotonous for me. It doesn’t take me 6 years to create a solution in removing the oppressor from my reality, my mind finds joyfull, yet rebellious stimulation in innovating the outdated structures that continue to oppress people like me. But they won’t pay me what I’m worth here, and they may try to bind me secretly to their karmic debts, I’m a black woman for all they care—they expect me to desire to fix it. Been there, done that. This isn’t my collective.

My collective did what they were supposed to 6 years ago and continue to clear their karma for our destined alignment. They know better than to fall fool to the system just because every body else decided to keep the status quo—that’s why many are where they are now.

My collective is ecstatic, rebellious, multidimensional, high vibrational, and SOVEREIGN. Many don’t even know the difference between freedom and sovereignty…*sigh*

CONSCIOUSNESS requires INVESTMENT.

And with my abilities, your level of investment is very obvious within the first minute of our encounter…energy speaks loud enough at times.

The way karmic mechanics at play have directed my ability to commit from my boundaries, I’m not going to surpass my blessings of protection and guidance because some body else is clearing painfull karmic wounds. I have my experiences too…and on a collective level? Many of us have our karmic clearings years before the majority—to be amongst the majority is to be in relation to the majority—meaning, y’all are learning together. To surpass is to belong to a whole different karmic cycle, and that’s my reality.

I’m chillin as I rebuild my nervous system, my divine vision, and my desired community. I’m destined to makes these next 20-30 years my legacy, my dream life… What comes my way, comes my way.

The collective will be okay as long as every body gets out their own way and does the healing visibly and courageously. We have Chiron in Aries, you will either do it or you will wish you did…and regrets are a different type of karma, I highly do not recommend.

I’m a melanated goddess, The Mystical Diva, on a divine mission infused with peace, pleasure, and prophecy. What we’re seeing is the karmic retribution mixed with denial—from both the civilians and their institutional allies. We’re still in the thick of it right now, there are many lessons on multiple dimensions taking place simultaneously. These are the times your embodiment, inner work, and mastery of spiritual energy will aid you deeply in discerning your intuition from interference.

“The tools were always within,

people fail to even begin.”

— Mistress Carmelita Marie León

Mood Music

Aesthetic Attunement

The Dress Code

Theme: Rootmother Couture

Hand-tailored gowns cloaked in shimmering sequins. Dapper and elegantly decorated tuxedos.

The Venue

The Tea

Pomegranate Green Tea: Vitality, Focus, Beauty

The Menu

Fruit Salad blend of bananas, blueberries, and strawberries with chia seeds and almond butter.

It’s Time For Another Initiation

Hello, darlings. It has been a while and oh, do I have a treat for you. My journey on Substack is metamorphic and has become a community beyond my wildest dreams. I am one of many blessed creatives who faced the truth: I want to get paid for being me. And as easy as it may sound, there are some detours that may take place to test my patience and oneness within—regardless, I tend to have an immense amount of confidence and joy in my self. I know I want to help people, and that there’s always some thing that we can do to help each other strive for the highest version of ourselves.

Since the Spring Equinox, it has been an oscillation between sweet beginnings and bitter endings that are taking place so swiftly, I could blink and quantum jump to another timeline.

My word for the year is “deserve”, and it is well deserved.

The Briefing

A name change is only the beginning, believe me. These past few months have been an intense learning curve, and yet, I still triumph to see another day with grace and ambition. If you’ve been with me since the beginning, you know this is the third name change and possibly not the last one—I am elevating beyond Self-inflicted limitations that have no role in the reality I am crafting for my self and my community. It can be daunting to make such “go with the flow” decisions, but Life will always require you to know when to hold,

know when to fold,

know when to walk away,

and know when to run.

Jokes aside, I always love a deep, cathartic transformation towards my highest good. It is difficult to imagine human existence was destined for suffering, dismay, and chaos—and to be fair, I don’t desire the ability, or should I say curse, of imagining the worst of the worst. I love my positive outlook on universal birthrights, my disciplined regard to the churning cesspool that is mainstream society, and my rebellious disposition to those who go against—and manipulate—the natural cycles of creation. Heavily Jupiterian with a Saturnian spice, I am not some body who believes I can beat them all with hate in my heart, malice infecting my mentality, or my suffering controlling my psyche. I know better than to believe I can change the world being any thing but authentically me, and this is where my timeline shifts.

We have to keep in mind that embodying the efforts of our inner work is key. It is deeper than saying affirmations in the mirror, writing letters to your self, or daily journaling activities. This is about embodiment.

What does it matter if you spend an hour a day, 365 days a year, speaking affirmations in your mirror if you’re a complete terror to be around?

In my practices of Self-actualization, and cosmic insights, what is taking place at this moment is what I like to call a “Saturnian Purge.” We have Saturn retrograde in Pisces and Pluto in Capricorn: this celestial mix is not an easy vibration to integrate, especially if you’re like me—I have Uranus, Neptune, and Jupiter in Capricorn and I have Saturn in Pisces—this is a moment of deep introspective restructuring.

Include Neptune retrograde in Pisces, and we have the “trapped escape artist”: a watery energy that cannot escape the feelings that result from their thoughts of what they believe is impossible to achieve. This is heavily fed by Neptune and Saturn energies as these planetary forces can makes Pisces feel more “dutiful”, when they would rather go with the flow…Some thing that Saturn doesn’t vibe with at all.

Currently, Venus is in Virgo, in “fall” across from this Piscean soap opera, and I will say it will get worse before it gets better. The Sun just entered Libra on October 17th, it is still too early to tell whether Libra will have the energetic force to balance what is taking place, but what I can say is: whatever isn’t balanced will be regardless, especially as October comes to a close. Libra season says, “I will not be silenced” and I expect this energy to carry for the rest of this Natural Year (not Gregorian Year, as in 2025, but the natural calendar that follows the ebbs and flow of the seasons). If you look closely, there’s a lot to gain within the seasons until the Sun enters Pisces. This is a prime time to notice the shifts in your life happening for the better (Saturn), and if you ride the flow (Pisces) and avoid dictating every detail (Venus), you will reap the rewards that Pisces currently cannot intuit with Saturn and Neptune creating storm clouds of Self-Consciousness.

Source Said “Jump.” I Asked, “How High This Time?”

I decided to handle these energies in the best way I know how: by replacing any insecurities that arose in my body with grace. When I had fear of my voice, I dedicated time to looking back at all the times I spoke before.

I reflected on what the deeper meaning could be behind the feeling of the insecurity, not the “why”…this strengthened my communication with my body’s true meaning, and not the presumed expectation of my internal masculine energies. The masculine energies come second because as a woman, a “feeling” is never just a feeling. And where this feeling arises speaks truths that may be overpowered by the logical mind.

I will come back to this story soon, but first, it is essential I reintroduce my publication. As you’ve noticed as you entered this writing, there is a set moodboard; complete with a dress code and menu, I would like to welcome you to my slow, sensual blog/digital studio, “The Confessions of The Mystical Diva”. Unfortunately, I don’t have the means to alternate the way titles appear on Substack, but just imagine it’s just as pretty when it comes across your screen. 😉

The Confessions of The Mystical Diva is definitely a blog—but here’s the thing, I am also traversing my Saturn’s Return and I’m going to be very clear when I say: Saturn does not play. The ups, downs, and U-turns that have taken place for the last 6 months are enough to make you question what is real. And I kinda like that. No, I really like that—because there are so many factors out of balance when it comes to our social behaviors and societal dynamics that are only real because The Collective maintain the status quo.

Naturally, I love my freedom. I am quite responsible, mindfull of my actions, and I can tell you now, the people who know me best will tell you I am the “Grandma” of the bunch (though I prefer to be the Rich Auntie). You won’t see me ruining my body with the latest food experiments or trending distraction. And with that, I know my idea of rebellion may be the most simplistic—such as food being a birthright to all, how current employment and housing models are structured to weaken the soul, and the Great Mother Earth naturally supplying us with what we need without the need to cause damage and suffering—but it obviously isn’t the norm.

So I plan to rebel, and my first rebellion begins with reclaiming ALL my divine gifts—beginning with the divine gift of being a woman with a voice of power. I love writing, I love conveying important messages…I’ve even learned to love the haters and the “Silent Supporters” who fail to recognize their magnetic attraction to me because their subtle bodies’ desires for balance keep them coming back for more. Like…at this point, the inner work is doing me.

So back to The Confessions of The Mystical Diva: This is my “Grace Space”, consider this publication as an emerging ecosystem of all things The Mystical Diva. It’s an active part of my shadow work, an active part of my growing enterprise, and an evolving factor of shifting The Collective. With what I know—and plan to divulge—it can be as easy as choosing to be your most authentic Self, over and over again. The only real obstacle is our self-limiting beliefs about our Self and others.

And it truly is over and over again. This is the fact that reminded me of my power, I have a Taurus Rising, and in esoteric teachings, Taurus rules the throat. It was an “aha!” moment well-deserved.

I realized this when I scrolled through Snapchat and found old videos of me immersed in pleasure and joy as I spoke to the camera. It was a daunting experience to witness the Mother wounds taking place, but I knew I prefer it to rise to the surface for release than stay lodged within and create dis-ease. This publication is an extension of this Throat Center activation, and beyond.

Class Is In Session, Beloved

I know evolution is bound to take place, so I don’t expect perfection nor consistency. I expect an attempt though, an experiment. And this is one experiment that is long overdue. The experiences that came my way to test my devotion to my evolution came in the form of temporary friendships, experimenting with BDSM and kink fantasies as therapy, creating a studio-based empire—the way this society’s culture has deteriorated this last decade is atrocious socially, and being surrounded by those who decide not to do the inner work literally makes me nauseous.

A Moment of Vulnerability, You’ve Been Warned:

I have a disability, and I really don’t like that word but…it is what it is. With the way the system of Social Security is setup, I cannot apply for disability—but it doesn’t make it any less real or insufferable. It’s actually evolved to a hormonal mood disorder that can be very debilitating day to day…And I found my quickest remedy is doing whatever the fnck I want. I know if you live in America, I don’t have to waste much time explaining the medical industry—you basically become your own doctor. And more than ten years in, I’m cool with that. What I am not cool with is how they’re trying to play God and destroying foodways, natural medicines, and our intuitive connection to our body in the same act.

In “doing whatever the fnck I want”, I’ve witnessed how holding a grounded yet cathartic space for my Self and others is exactly what they didn’t know they needed. Even for the Shadow Sisters—the women who fail to believe me when I tell them I can See them and their shenanigans plain as day. (And I’m a Leo, I will toy with you, baby. I will make a game out of the fact you actively try to hide your shadows until you bear witness to the aspects of your Self pleading for divine integration. 😈 And before any body tries to come for me, believe me when I say I do not care to be where I am not supposed to be. When some body is trying to hijack your energy without earning it through applied discipline, integration, Self-respect, Spiritual Authority, and Authentic Power—it can be sensed and seen, easily).

Many women in my family were my first experiences with Shadow Sisters, and with my neurodivinity, I am reaallllyyy a Master of Shadows. I think people have yet to wake up to the depths of vibrational resonance and how people like my self are not only sensitive to the projections and deflections of others, but they are equally consenting to their own crash out with their self-conscious choices. It doesn’t bother me as much as it did a few years ago, but it does exude the toxic femininity that takes place in the “Sisterhood” sector of the Collective. There’s much to speak on in this realm, but I will speak on this very soon because the time to evolve our connections, and the discernment that results in these connections, is coming swiftly.

I’ve had a great example in my life who demonstrated the consequences of pretending you are not affected by people who take your love/peace/connection for granted, or accepting their shenanigans to “keep the peace”; in my practice of gifting my self grace, it doesn’t vibe. In fact, that’s what people like that expect. Since my Saturn Return began, since my disability became an exacerbating factor in my life, I’ve enjoyed doing the opposite.

I’ve enjoyed kicking mentalities and psyches out of their boxes.

I’ve enjoyed being the opposing force to their sedentary perspectives and stagnant expressions.

I’ve enjoyed letting people be EXACTLY who they say they are, whatever that is.

I’ve enjoyed saying what I do want, and unflinchingly responding “no thank you” to any thing I don’t want.

I really enjoy my boundaries, my creative expression, and my opinion. I have a newfound love for transmuting pain in to power, and power in to passion. They should’ve never told me to “give my self grace”—

A Leo Sun. Aquarius Moon. Taurus Rising. Pluto in Scorpio conjunct Descendant (consider this your homework 😘)

Of course I am coming to the function with my demons on royal purple Malachite-embellished collars. Of course you’re bound to learn some thing transformational encountering my magnetic reality. Let’s have some fun.

*Dance Break*

From The Rootmother Temple to The Mystical Diva’s Manor

I love being a Rootmother, and I always will be. But there’s a limited representation on Rootmothers who also lead glamorous life styles. Maybe my research hasn’t dived beyond the surface, but I know what I’m envisioning isn’t “out there”. It never is.

In America, they have a terrible problem with trying to tell others what spirituality looks like, how it is enacted, and what it is not…and that isn’t my problem, but when it comes to the energetic drain that is discussing my psychic insights while simultaneously disclosing the gems to those who are interested, isn’t worth it. I enjoy doing readings, rituals, and workings for my clients (and rarely, the public), but there’s some thing big happening…It makes my Capricorn placements tingle, and I know it has much to do with Pluto traversing Capricorn because much of my evolution has brought me face to face with my mentality on power, prestige, and luxury—and demanded I innovate it.

It comes easy to me to see money and the tricks of the trade—why they do what they do, how profit and losses are weighed…I’ve experimented with stocks and the psychology of the Collective, and have reap the reward of knowing my intuition was on the money (pun intended).

I have always excelled at math, it probably wouldn’t surprise many for them to know I was a gifted child, receiving 5th grade classwork in 3rd grade…it came naturally to comprehend yet another widely accepted pattern.

One of my favorite shows is Shark Tank, I’ve been an avid fan of the show since high school. I’ve always enjoyed observing Kevin O’Leary’s approach in the show, and his ROI-driven mindset. This reflective time of retrograding planets gifted me the insight that I believe will put many people ahead if they are able to master the basics of embodiment.

The key to every thing that humanity leans on as this era unfolds is VALUE.

Do you know what value entails? It entails you know how to appraise some thing. Judge.

Discern.

Many don’t know how to appraise, to think critically or judge objectively. Many lose themselves in the crowd of opinions and low-vibrational chitchat. And maybe some people are destined to play this role a bit longer, it isn’t my call; but those who can help it, will learn that VALUE currently rules the world.

Who applies value, who dictates the value of “this” or “that.”

Currently, these dynamics are changing drastically. What we knew to be a stable existence is revealing its self to be a disintegrating façade. One of the biggest reveals lies in where those with the power to dictate value are deciding to apply their focus in keeping with the shifting era. This requires Aquarius/Saturn energy…CEO Scientist energy.

What is coming is going to require those who don’t want to have to “get it out the mud” to do some thing impactful for their community to align with their highest calling, just as I am having to align with mine. When you endure and embrace your shadow workings, those who are maintaining the old paradigm will be able to tell by the vibrational mismatch, and there will be many doors you can no longer walk through. You graduate from the ability to go back and forth from the 5D to the 3D from a sense of desperation, insecurity, or forced will. What used to work before will no longer be attainable…

After deep bouts of reflection, rest and refining my strategy, vision, and approach, I knew I could achieve a balance that is palatable to those who stopped fearing their own Light and the Light of others. What I have structured includes:

• Self-Lovin’ authenticity as Collective evolution.

• Energy medicines in relationships.

• Conscious luxury and slow living.

• Sensuality as a nutrient, embodiment as rebellion.

• Woman empowerment through glamour magic, beauty rituals, and connection with the Mother Earth.

• Celestial energy as vibrational patterns.

• My philosophical outlook on Life, Love, and Consciousness (The Glamour Gospel).

• And more!

These are just rough notes of what I have planned, I am currently working on a “Imposter to Icon” series and bringing my more “shadowy” teachings to Substack. There’s going to be an overhaul soon. I don’t want to say too much (even though Substack is warning me my post is too long for email), but this is going to be an exciting time to know a neurodivine genius. 🤷🏾‍♀️

If you read this far, thank you🥰😘
I let the ramble win, and I have no regrets.

Don’t forget, your engagement is highly favored! I have no CTA for you right now, but know your support aids my shadow work. We are all in this together in some multidimensional way, and I honor the roles we play together.

See you soon. 💋

Miss Carmelita Marie León

has a need for every thing

I speak to link in ways that surpass days

we think we need to succeed false realities.

My flow knows where I aim to go

requires dropping off loads

of knowledge and power in the darkest hour

when we forge our own hope to cope

with life turning sour.

In my solitude I’ve uncovered the aptitude

to flow in what I know by speaking my truth.

People are caught up in lies they fail to defy,

preaching they’re ready to fly

though the cage door’s open wide.

It always will be, many just fear the accountability

necessary for this life to be the dream-made-reality….

But not me, not in a million lifetimes

will this sly societal box confine

me to their fantasies

as if the Divine

didn’t gift me the Third Eye sight

to witness my destiny manifest from Light…

I lead by example, though I’m a handfull,

that simply comes with the Might.

Those who love me wholeheartedly

sense my divine mission clearly…

I never have to try too hard

to do my part

to the best of my abilities.

It’s a thrill to me

to be here with no fear…

Multidimensional and

a rebel full of care,

a rebel full of cause—it’s too easy to see the flaws.

— A Saturn Rx in Pisces/Venus in Virgo baby ✨

My star power is not your costume, boo.

She wanna be just like me,

she prays it heals her misery.

Her life is kinda dreary—

she believes being near me,

can swap our chosen destinies.

I laugh…

Obviously,

your creativity

is completely obsolete.

Obviously,

your sanity

was left in the sheets

of the psych ward

you broke out from…

Explains why crashing out

is your favorite outcome.

Honestly,

it’s ugly to see

how desperate you are to be

seen as something

you didn’t work for.

It’ll never integrate at the core,

never be found in the stores,

and it makes you a complete bore.

But I’m flattered, I guess…

Like a baby to my breast,

may my essence

inspire your best.

Though…

Inspiration isn’t your best suit,

too busy trying to be cute—

but the black lace

won’t fix your face

or your stank attitude.

Some body should’ve told you

not all Mistresses need to be crude,

Many have class,

to complement their ass—

unfortunately you only have one of the two.

I’m not telling you any thing new,

that’s exactly why you do what you do.

But I know karma has been healthy to you,

we can tell in how you go mute…

I laugh…

You truly reap what you sow, right?

By now, your aura could’ve been shining bright—

yet too focus on others’ light

to put in the fight

for what’s divinely aligned.

Unhealed matters of the mind

dictate your drive

attract your tribe

eat up your time…

and while you pretend to be fine,

misaligned…

You’ll continue to look for me

Carving space in your mind

where I live rent free…

Maybe one day you’ll see

your vampiric ways

as the spiritual dis-ease

they be…

Much of modern society fails to honor and speak our body’s emotional language, misinterpreting its desires for balance as the foundation of reality.

It’s impossible to embody the emotional state of joy and not feel it.

It’s impossible to embody the emotional state of shock or terror and not feel it.

Sun in Cancer highlighted the glory and joy we have in our emotional security, but Pluto also shook this up—challenging a transformational approach to structures and our relationship with authority (personal authority as well as the power exchanged with the collective) as we’ve known it to be.

Many years ago, I used to reclaim power over my emotions by either not feeling them wholly or intellectualizing them due to needing my energy and time elsewhere. I was used to dealing with people with “big” emotions as well, so the stage was always preoccupied by some body—and some one (me) needed to have some sanity…so I “took up running.”

I ran from social events, I ran from vulnerable conversations, I ran from Self-actualization. Not because I believed I had no thing to offer, but I dictated there was no thing to gain. I was bored of the dynamics that constructed society and our social circles; I craved a deeper, intimate connection that wasn’t just Person A and Person B.

It felt too much like caretaking…as though I’m here to fund the show—emotionally at minimum, physically at maximum—but never grace the stage.

It wasn’t until I lived on my own that I received firsthand experience in the full range of my emotions in the isolation from others. It wasn’t until this moment I realized how many varying choices we can make with—and in the name of—our emotional security.

Many don’t know the importance, fluidity, and vastness of our emotional intelligence—just by looking at the photo above, it grows easier to see how a refined sense of emotional intelligence may choose words from the outer ring to convey their emotions, as opposed to the innermost ring.

But each of these words conjured to express our emotional state have a relationship to our emotional body and a responsibility to the interconnectedness of the Collective as a guide back home to Love…even the ones who tend to be rushed, suppressed, rehabilitated, or just plain ignored as some trendy culture movement.

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Fear, Anger, and Disgust powered me when they placed a price tag on Happiness, Surprises, and Sadness. Not to say there isn’t a price tag on the former, but the latter—Happiness, Surprises, and Sadness—have a very special role in the perpetuation of the creation and expression of willpower. This requires extra work on our part to ensure that we are not slipping in to the unhealed patterns of these emotions.

Fear, Anger, and Disgust powered me through reflection and writing, I have never been some body who could keep it bottled within me. On days of cathartic release, reading, writing, and crying was my church. I finally found my voice.

Fast forward to today, and I wear my emotions like a badge of Proof of Humanity (in case you haven’t noticed, humanity has been a limited resource; there’s hope for revival) because many became victims to the process that is “doing the work.”

I used to say, “fear is love confused” and it still rings true. This last five years in America was a great presentation of where we are as a “People” and many of these people are emulating humanitarianism though their performances reap no benefits. It reaps no Proof of Humanity, especially if it’s dependent upon a digital platform for its existence. It is leasing a censored space while the ecosystem that needs tending and nurturing continues to take matters in to its own hands, where mercy isn’t a system of governance but a cyclical promise of balance—no matter how chaotic.

As within, so without…

My journey was never in vain, it was in rites and initiations framed as social dynamics and love.

These days, I find gratitude when I reminisce on the aches in my chest when I am in deep sorrow…

…or the stinging soreness in my cheeks from smiling too hard…

…or the warm glow of peace and safety from thoughts of how much I love my life. How much I love being me, rather than mirroring me…

It’s the actions of sacred witnessing that solidify our emotional intelligence as heart-led consciousness.

It’s the “oh, how lovely it is to be alive…alive enough to feel these feelings rather than numbness…rather than the mimicry of death” that arrives when you embody what it is to truly be alive…not your job, not your relationships, not your degree…but just be.

To swoon in the awareness to feel so deeply is to acknowledge your body’s ability to speak to you and always have your best interests at heart.

Now, I’m not saying awareness is painless.

I am not saying awareness lessens the pain, not at first at least. It’s a skill of consciously recognizing the minute details of life and your ability to make some thing beautiful with your awareness.

I believe what I’m trying to say here is similar to Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, the interactions between our emotions, thoughts, and actions. But I’d like to honor the state of gratitude that goes unnoticed in order to allow these emotionally intelligent decisions to evolve our consciousness swiftly.

If you would like to learn more, begin here:

The Healing Nature of Body, Mind, & Spirit, pt.I

Sacred Rebellion: Reclaiming Health As Divine Sovereignty

Whispers to the Inner Child of Flame

As I get ready to feel the Sun with this sidereal Leo season, I know no thing but great things come from gratitude…especially when it doesn’t pertain to materialistic things or what some body else can do for you…just be greatfull to be here to start. List three things you are thankfull for and make it a challenge. The brain is an organ that needs to be exercised, you will only be as great as the efforts you put in…I believe in you✨

Stay blessed, stay aware

✨🙏🏾🧿

A few weeks ago while I washing dishes, I reflected on the way the world felt in my body and what may be birthed from the collective consciousness. It felt warm and joyfull, but I’m also naturally warm and joyfull…but this felt different, it felt as though the joy wasn’t based on the current affairs but what was going to be made manifest from the current affairs.

Yes, it sounds like I got what I asked for, and maybe I did, but the energy that raised my curiosity was sourcing from “the madness”—the tears, the grief, the disconnect—and no, this isn’t some thing I strive for celebrating. This is a facet of energetic reception that tends to not be spoken about much from the communities of adept (if not “mastered”) shadow workers.

At one point, the disasters of the superficial world and the natural world they fight so hard to suppress are equally visible—and you comprehend there’s a bigger fight going on than solely the societal level. The embodiment of good versus evil on its multidimensional scale is so deeply engrained, without proper structures in place, it can become crippling.

Saturn is in Pisces, retrograde too.

Pluto is in Capricorn, also retrograde.

Neptune is retrograde in Pisces, sitting atop Saturn.

Mars entered Virgo, soon to oppose Pisces—creating friction between Mars, Saturn, and Neptune.

Mercury is in Cancer, retrograde, slowly approaching an opposition to Pluto in Capricorn…

A year of endings and beginnings, and the skies are speaking of a lot of restructuring.

A lot of breaking down, building up, witnessing the disruption of illusions, realizing systems you depended upon are illusions—leading to the need to start over again while the world around you continues its facade for those they can catch and the rules to the societal order shift to include selling more of your soul. A deeper sense of desensitization to humanity for your basic needs that barely sustain your body, home, and environment.

They continue the scandals, the depletion, the regulations, the wars…all while they continue to build a new system to replace and fulfill their dying system without missing a beat.

I’m not here to frighten you, I’m here to tell you to get real. The systems in place bank on the Collective’s inability to reclaim their authentic power. And authentic power isn’t what many think it to be, which still resonates the Age of Pisces “dreamy” energy.

A vision came to me: a cougar prowling the dry, arid desert. Another was beginning to climb a tree amongst the bushy shrubs, grazing with no concern of obstacle or pests.

I’ve always resonated with the big cats that didn’t move in packs, though I love the lions too. Knowing that the North American Lion went extinct during the time the humans made their way to the Americas was symbolic in nature to the emotional relation I have with the North American societal framework.

The cougars I saw were similar to videos with a voiceover whispering,

“it’s the cougar medicine, actually”

And it made a lot of sense. With the celestial bodies in their dance across the sky, and the energetic waves it’s manifested within those unaware of the unseen forces at work, this Leo/Aquarius axis that is foreseen to be a great shift in the Collective’s consciousness will not be without its deeper core of power.

This Sacred Sun Day’s service is dedicated to the imminent Leo season we will experience and our connections to the cougar medicine we may discover within as the celestial dance of planetary vibes aligns our temples to higher dimensions.

✨🙏🏾🧿

To continue the story,

I looked through a myriad of books for my notes on cougars, and at the time I wanted to give up, a memory surfaced about the fact that cougars are also called other names. I remembered then why it was referred to as cougar medicine in the message, because I knew I had my own problem with the term as a means to objectify women’s sexuality as both a commodity and a threat.

I had a moment on my journey where I learned of jaguar medicine—an initiation divinely summoned through energetic meditation and ancestral communion. I remembered the panthers along my travels and the myriad of cat species with their distinct personalities and vibrations…but the cougar medicine was a euphemism for the feline of Ancestral Fire walking beside me as we speak: The Mountain Lion.

I will speak on my own relations with the Mountain Lion as we progress in the preachment, but first let’s begin with a brief introduction that aligns with the Sovereign Wellness Devotional practices.

Mountain Lion Medicine, The Master of Sovereign Authenticity

Leadership without domination • guardianship of sacred land • sensual sovereignty • Self-trust in solitude • silent power • honoring boundaries

In the traditions of my Tsalagi Ancestors, animals are considered spiritual allies, helpers from the Unseen World, and emissaries of ᎤᏃᏴᏫ (Unole), the Wind/Spirit. For us ladies, especially those connected to the Red Corn or Paint Clans, Mountain Lion energy signifies red earth wisdom, erotic and protective medicine, and the capacity to defend the sacred while embodying the sensual life force of the Earth.

I found a video on YouTube that demonstrates the blood curdling sounds of the Mountain Lion, and why I can sense it’s necessary medicines for the times ahead.

Mountain Lion Scream - YouTube

The Mountain Lion has been given over forty different names. As a descendant of the Blue Ridge and the Alabama Black Belt, the Mountain Lion resonates with my Leo placements and my Capricorn placements whose archetype is the Goat.

My Tsalagi family revered the Mountain Lion and its potent medicines. A great guardian spirit and silent sovereign of the high places, an apex predator of stealth, grace, and unshakable presence. The walker of both the Middle and Lower Worlds, caves, springs, and mountain passes are sacred places we can use to energetically travel the vast space of the natural spirit world. Like with any guardian spirit, you must show reverence and arrive with an offering before making any claims, demands, or contracts.

In the light of my Blackfoot Ancestors, the Mountain Lion is honored and often associated with hunters, warriors, and those with vision quest medicine as a powerfull guardian of protection. To embody the mountain lion’s medicine is to embody the supernatural abilities of keen sight, patience, and spiritual wisdom. Just like my Tsalagi Ancestors, the Blackfoot recognize this guardian as one of the animals who could move between worlds and knew how to track both spirit and prey.

The Mountain Lion is connected to dream-travel, the wisdom gifted through isolation and initiatory solitude, which was deeply honored in Blackfoot ceremonial life. Her guidance was considered oracular, a whisperer of the soul’s hidden paths.

Down south, my Ancestresses always knew the wildness of the feminine spirit and the necessity of shadow work for survival. In rootwork, mountain lions and panthers are seen as omens of power. Sometimes they are protectors, sometimes harbingers of “death” or transformation. What we call “shadow work” today was simply another form of connection to the Great Spirit and Great Mother Earth.

Magic of the Mountain Lion is tied to sexual autonomy, shadow sovereignty, and erotic justice—taking back power that was once stolen or silenced. A long and intense journey I am quite familiar with, leading an example of authentic expression can be a dualistic way to awaken others as well as your Self. Especially as a priestess reclaiming her identity and being, there are many lessons that come with working with Mountain Lion medicine. A great example is The Panther Woman, our leading lady in to erotic medicine.

Pussy is Power: The Panther Woman

The “Panther Woman” or “Black Cat Woman” lore moves through oral tradition, dream memory, and ancestral flame more than through books. Her archetype arises from the deep cauldron of Black ancestral memory, especially from the American South, Caribbean, and African Diaspora. This archetype is not a singular, well-defined character but rather a blend of traits that appear in oral traditions, stories, and spiritual practices. What we call “Black Cat Energy” today is the prime example of how collective archetypes are created and perpetuated.

She is demonized, eroticized, and feared by many (sound familiar?) because she carries the wild and divinely terrorizing freedom of a woman who has reclaimed her body and power after generations of systemic theft. She is frequently spoke of as a shapeshifting priestess who seduces with her charm and mystique to influence others, often tied to love, desire, or manipulation. They say she’s capable of transforming her body in to a panther, black cat, or other animal, reflecting her connection to the spiritual and natural worlds.

Today, the priestesses and rootmothers of hoodoo, Lucumi, and other African-derived traditions are reclaiming and revitalizing these practices through spiritual shops and online platforms. We are educating communities about hoodoo’s history and its role in healing intergenerational trauma, aligning with the Panther Woman’s legacy as a healer and protector.

Ways to Deepen the Power of the Panther Woman

1. Journal Prompts

   • What part of me was punished for being “too much” or “too sensual” as a girl?

   • Where does my body still carry fear of being seen?

   • How do I offer myself pleasure as justice?

2. Ancestral Ritual

   • Dress in black silk or velvet.

   • Burn mugwort, tobacco, and patchouli.

   • Whisper:
     “To the ones who seduced and survived.
     To the ones whose shadows were sacred.
     I remember you. I release shame in your name.
     May my pleasure liberate all of us.”

3. Study Suggestions

   • Look into:

     • “Conjure Women” by Afia Atakora (fiction, but rich in rootworker archetypes)

     • “Black Magic Woman” (song + lore across genres)

     • Studies on Ezili Dantor, Oshun, and Mama Wata—goddesses who overlap with panther themes

     • Folklore around Marie Laveau and other shadow priestesses

The Road to Shadow Sovereignty

Working with mountain lion medicine is not for the faint of heart, but neither are these transiting retrogrades! The leaders are being called to the frontline for initiation and there is no time to waste.

As a guardian spirit on your journey, Mountain Lion gifts speed and precision to the making of life choices, but it isn’t without the discipline of boundaries one finds success in their endeavors. Mountain Lion is territorial and carefully marks its territory from intruders—a significant factor in the works manifested with this guardian spirit.

Resonant with the Root center, the Mountain Lion is a powerfull and patient ally whose keen instincts know when to pounce on what they desire. Sometimes, that requires traversing the journey alone and embracing the sacred solitude on your journey as a way to deepen your commitment to your inner self.

And you know it isn’t called a “cat fight” for no reason—keep in mind that great responsibility is always paired with great power. That many will question your leadership skills, but remember you’re not here to lead. You’re here to express your spiritual authority and authentic power from a place of wisdom, creativity, and sovereign judgment. Many in America are intimidated by those with the powers of creative freedom to make decisions without fear. Their emotional security is based in the depths of communal harmony, even if the communal harmony is a falsified illusion of safety. It has no thing to with you except to know that energy speaks, and whether they decide to embrace the shift in their reality or not, you did your piece by just being your true self.

Until next Sunday Day, beloveds.

Peace & Love. Stay blessed, stay aware.

✨🙏🏾🧿

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I have been feeling a flow coursing in my veins lately that has me feeling the words before their spoken. I have strengthened my rituals and my workings lately and my sacral center is clearing impurities quickly… My creativity is sky high!

So let me warn you, this isn’t a quick read. This is a timeless piece of rhythm and blues.

Some thing you can come back to to feel some thing.

Off the dome, per usual.

May my essence highlight the blessin’ of sovereignty.

True power never lived in conformity, it could exist…but never live.

There’s power here, times like these require a strong nervous system and an even stronger discernment. Co-creation on multiple dimensions isn’t only recommended but it’s essential now, sweetheart.

You really have to watch the Words you speak, the vibration’s don’t play whether you know how powerfull you are or not…

So here, I’m sharing a Word with those who resonate with the shifts Great Mother Earth is experiencing and the awakenings of the Oneness we are. “As above, so below” has magnetized to a grander scale of magic, I don’t have to say too much about it to the aligned ones, but its tone is deafening in this piece soo — if you don’t know, now you know.

Catch me meditating

as the false world’s disintegrating…

Never been one to believe

what we’ve received

is all there ever was

or ever to be…

So catch me meditating,

as the new world’s initiating

the Keepers, the Saints, the Healers…

Don’t be fooled by the illusions of chaos,

the ones in the wrong definitely gon’ feel her.

Oh they know better, they know just

but you have to remember darlin’

they’re not like us.

We are the Cosmos, Oneness with Source

something they can’t achieve without

manipulation and force…

And baby, they don’t want to!

…Just look at how humanity has taken course.

I know better than to believe

everything I see, but when your eyes

come in a set of three,

it’s truly harder to be deceived.

Third Eye, the home of Inner Sight…

They’ll block your path to higher purpose

with their precisely crafted fright.

The media isn’t your friend, it isn’t your ally

The falling world is a trap, an ancient alibi…

I can’t stomach the lack of unity, it makes my Earth Mama cry…

The way we would quickly create collective power,

if we could just unify!

There’s tools all around us, we already “Know Our Why”.

We’d craft gardens, homes, and towns too…

But like my Mama says, “Ya can’t tell grown folks what to do.”

I’m 28, so I’m pretty new

to the fact that 

the falling world is

what some folks feel 

called to rescue…

My words on deaf ears, the silent issue.

Leading by example is key

to overriding the misuse

of Earth Mama’s bounty,

and reclaiming our roots.

If we wait for their consent,

we are destined to lose…

So you might ask me,

“What do you plan to do?”

Ground and align as my bloodline

refines my Temple of Light

to fight

for the decline

as we birth a new timeline

of all we deserve and every God-gifted

birthright.

It’s time we reset the storyline…

It’s time we become beacons of Radical Signs.

Not Speakerbox Saviors, 

preaching to the Masses

urging they heal their misbehaviors.

Earth Mama is ready to be center stage!

You better get it right, if you wanna be out the way

when Mama’s rage

wipes this Techno-Stone Age

as an act of realignment

wisely conjured as rampage.

So I digress,

though it looks a mess,

every thing’s right on time.

This is not a moment to hide or backslide,

If you know what’s good for you, 

you’d have a clear mind and open-eyed

perception that those acting from deception

dread the day the people realize 

their acts of organized crime

end this lifetime.

Can’t you see them scurry and dart

with their fascination for Mars?

They just wanna go home too,

using the media to influence

their plan as a “worldview”.

It was never about me, 

it was never about you.

It was about these creatures, only about a few

with a plan of domination…a hidden imbue

disguised as everything Mama gave us

if you look close, you can feel the clues…

The Codes, the body knows

and that’s why they hijacked our foods….

…I could talk all day 

about the evils at play,

but what exactly would that do?

The soil’s callin’ and the bees are very few…

Mama’s beings didn’t ask for this, 

they need us stewards to pull through.

So I master my craft, practice my hoodoo

gift my offerings to the trees, the bees

and study Natural Law too.

I’m a Rebel With A Cause, a World Citizen

infused with the essences of Saturn —

so I am one with my disciplines.

My Vision is vast, 

a cosmic blast from the past.

I’ve been here too many times chile, 

the third dimension isn’t even my domicile.

Catch me meditating

as the false world’s disintegrating…

Earth Mama’s pulsating

Evolution into the ethers, activating

hearts, souls, and minds 

fated to awaken 

by the Divine.

I have no stress and I have no doubts,

We were always destined to break out

the illusions and deceits…

I always knew we’d never taste defeat.

Catch me meditating

as the false world’s disintegrating…

as the new world’s initiating and

intercommunicating 

the success we achieve when we choose to be

unapologetically free…no clipped wings.

The aura sings with glee and joy

when we actively choose to destroy

living in boxes of conformity.

You can join me too, just kick off your shoes!

And listen to the codes as you breathe.

Mama knows best, our authenticity does the rest.

Cosmic codes radiate from beneath our feet,

all the receipts we need to lead

The wounded to victory.

✨🫶🏾🧿

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Welcome to the first Sacred Sun Day Service Priestess Preachment! I conjured this featured addition not only to strengthen my oracular vision, but also because I know there’s a calling — a destiny — taking place that is not only bigger than me, but requires total surrender. I don’t have the words for it just yet, but basically many of the things here designed for human consumption — food, art, relationships — are not compatible with my etheric systems of the body, mind, and spirit… There’s something organic about it though, something spiritual in the fact my body and spirit react instantly to what is toxic, negative, or harmful. I am actively on the path to a more elevated homeostasis of life and this plays a heavier portion in being available to the Conscious Collective through my own energy, time, and works.

Every Sun Day at 11:11AM, the preachment will take place here on Substack, either in writing or audio. Maybe both, depending on the intensity of the reading. Let’s begin.

Opening The Portal

This Sun Day is a 9 Day! A number of endings, completions, and finishing touches. For this Sun Day to be our first preachment and it is also a 9 Day is a very spiritual energetic blend of endings and beginnings.

With the Sun in Cancer and Moon in Taurus, we are tuning into what brings us emotional comfort and security. This preachment today is a collective gathering that focuses on our true nature of our emotions and our emotional body.

The emotional body is the subtle body second closest to our physical body (after the etheric double). This subtle body is fed through our emotions, feelings, attitudes, heartbreaks, traumas, and dramas — from our current and previous lifetimes. When dis-ease occurs, it can be seen as dark or distorted psyches within the subtle emotional body, Solar Plexus, and Heart Center; it can also be sensed in our Sacral Plexus, Root Center, Knee Centers, and our Feet Roots — which is where the expression of insecurities and fear are emanating from.

Engrams are bundles of energy that hold either traumatic or joyous memories —

“Engrams are biological changes that occur in our neural tissues as the result of a powerful or persistent reaction to any situation. An engrams is not an ordinary memory, but more like a photograph of the situation or event, complete with the emotional response that accompanied it. Engrams exist just below the level of our consciousness, influencing our emotional responses without our knowledge.”

This is an important factor of energetic healing because engrams can create subconscious blockages to your Centers, and no matter what Truths you tell your self, the body knows the Truth. This week is about uncovering this Truth, letting her breath and nourish her being, so we rise with the next Full Moon in reverence of the engrams and experiences that once held us back. This is the reclamation of Truth in its most raw and powerfull.

In its most devotional ✨🙏🏾🧿

6, Duality: Polarity • Separation (reverse)

This card is a card of active reflection. The duality card has no reverse aspect.

The Duality card asks us to reflect and release feelings of separation, grief, and fear. We are being asked to take time today to honor the sacred spaces of healing available for these heavier feelings, and releasing the idea that we are stuck in these positions of pain and suffering.

“The duality card asks you to see separation and how it is affecting your life, then rediscover within yourself the joys of life and connectedness that is the true nature of reality.”

When we feel, we create more than a thought or memory to conjure…we create an essence that flavors our physical reality with the subconscious mind involved. If you haven’t already, read my transmission “Whispers to the Inner Child of Flame” below and it will gift you a brief introduction to the intricate matters of the mind.

One of the biggest challenges living in Amerikkka is the fact many tend to believe joy lives in the material. They’ve been tricked out of their birthrights and now lay claim to the material world being the master of producing joy. Yes, this includes those who want to travel and see the world, though their materialistic joy is a different perspective than the majority.

We have this innate sense of joy that exists solely with a regulated nervous system, sense of Self, and faith that aligns with good deeds — healthy deeds, towards our Self, our peers, and our planet. This aligns with our birthrights of free food, housing, water, sunlight, friendships, and travel. Are you seeing the picture, beloved? This card asks you to acknowledge the parts of your life that your birthrights have been distorted, and how you are paying for it day in and day out as a living person, a parent, a sibling, or a lover…the lack of joy many people experience is a repercussion of a societal framework that is destined to fall….but not without trying to take as many as they can with them.

This is the call many feel in their Root Center they tend to label something else, more or less because they are not conscious of the words to acknowledge what it is so they can bring awareness to it. Awareness is a necessity, and it comes in many forms when we remember we are Spirit having a human experience — we are never alone and we are never without. Awareness isn’t a solo mission, and we are often gifted signs and Light along our path to realign and refine what it is we are destined to become. This is where the Ego tends to run rampant as many people are expressing distorted energies.

Folks talk of “killing the ego” but that would be a physical death — it is truly impossible to kill the Ego compared to feeding it nourishing matters of Truth and Love. This is where the Duality card activates its heaviest form of active reflection, where our Ego and Spirit collide and collaborate for the betterment of Self and Oneness. Take a moment today to gift your Ego the sacred space to speak, and the same for your Spirit. Tune in to your body and feel where these languages express sensations or tingles. This speaks to parts of our etheric body that remembers those feelings that the Ego long forgot to speak on anymore; where the Spirit was silenced and pushed aside in an act to hold afloat a distorted, siphonic system that stole our birthrights. This is the awareness of energetic healing, darlin’.

✨🙏🏾🧿

25, DNA: Conscious Evolution (reverse)

This card is a card of active reflection.

There’s a heaviness taking place in the realm of conscious evolution where many are wearing their pains rather than reflecting and releasing these emotional engrams — resulting in a joyless life and lack of close-knit community. I doubt it’s necessary, but turning on the TV or scrolling through what is trending on social media will gift you a bird’s eye view of the detachment and disconnection amongst the Conscious Collective. We see men and women arguing about who’s right and who’s wrong. The Collective projecting and spewing their personal opinions, inner woes, and secrets due to the impeding loneliness taking place — and without proper practices for grief and Self-Love, we are bound to lose many to the other side of what is to take place. Also, when I say “lose many” I’m not implying death (though it is completely an option), I am implying conscious ease of communication, service, and community. I’ve dealt with a lot of people who were not educationally intelligent in my life, so I am quite familiar with the signs and patterns, and they’re not that different from those who are situationally intelligent. What they share in common is claws that are deeply embedded in the flesh of their belief. You can’t change their mind at this point because the Self-inflicted patterns of fear, loneliness, inadequacy, and comparison have become a life support system in order to make it through another day.

I am currently tending to my heart space as well family, releasing the fact many could only love me from their (shallow) capacity and it wasn’t enough, but I attempted to make it so…only for it to bounce back years later on nights my ovulation reminds me what it feels like to be sensually human. To crave a warm touch, a firm hug, or an embracing cuddle…to me, intimacy is medicine. To the many (and there are MANY) intimacy is an out-of-body experience they’ve grown addicted to in the worse ways. It’s hijacked by lust and separated from true, genuine love.

Being raised by a Venusian mother made life difficult in some ways — the biggest one being that “you treat people how you want to be treated” — but she didn’t prepare me to experience the fact they didn’t have to return the favor. Experiencing years of homelessness, in places like Las Vegas, Florida, Atlanta, and Phoenix showed me that the love or community isn’t where the money is available in surplus. It closed my heart and siphoned my joy to know I didn’t exist to any body as I struggled for food, money for a hotel, and bus fare to donate plasma; even the person I was “dating” barely made me feel like I existed — it felt like toleration…. And I sense a lot of the same energies when I leave my home. Toleration, hesitation, and frustration…

Many humans, especially in Amerikkka, have energetic vampire tendencies and fail to notice it because of their disconnection from the Godliness within themselves. Many don’t comprehend those of us who live, learn, and love through Love can tell when the Love or admiration comes from a reptilian mindset, a desire to use us for what we’ve gained or who we know. We can sense when the faithful is tainted and we can feel the shifts that take place when the love fades…but they act as though it isn’t the case…

“The emotions of love and compassion influence the harmonics of the heart and speed these changes to our DNA. Each time you act from your heart, rather than from fear, you contribute to the evolution of humankind and the healing of Mother Earth.”

Amerikkka is being forced in to a fear-inflicted false cosmic awakening based in regression and this is going to cause many big trouble that can only be remedied by being the dominant power. The Ascension will not be televised because the television is not on your side. The Ascension has been delicately unfolding these past five years, it’s evident in the Evils That Be’s desire to perpetuate their cycles as they have before — but this time, a lot more energy is being expended towards quieting many as well. We are the people who will save us from the wrath of the distorted and the chaotic. But I am not telling you something you don’t already know!

That is why you’re here today, celebrating a life of Love, Truth, and Remembrance! Reclaiming our Erotic Sovereignty can be a cycle of ups and downs — especially as we are being gifted gems from the Great Mother Earth along our journey for realignment and reconnection to our Divinity. But we prevail in numbers, and that is an aspect of human nature they desire to eradicate without getting their hands even more dirty by having us do the dirty work through our auras and orifices. I am deeply appreciative of those of you joining me today in this timeless sanctuary as Vessels of Devotion, as these changing times are not as scary as they seem when we give our Love and Grace from a place that doesn’t extinguish our Light nor make us bargain our Spirit.

✨🙏🏾🧿

9, Echoes of One: Greater Whole (reversed)

This is a card of reflective action.

Divinely timed, this card speaks on the dynamics of relationships we see currently taking place here in Amerikkka. I want to begin with mentioning this card doesn’t speak solely on romantic relationships, but the relationship of Self — our inner feminine and inner masculine energies as an ecstatic dance of the oneness we are experiencing as starseeds.

We are moving away from power dynamics and it is increasingly evident that what used to work is now outdated and causing many harm in their relationships and communal harmony. There is a chaotic upheaval within the Conscious Collective that is conjuring illusions of separation, dominance, and manipulation. Many are encountering each other from behind a wall of “security” — “get them before they get me” — type energy that does more harm than good…it emanates an energetic signature that you are not safe, and may do what it takes to be “safe” as it is defined by the Ego. And this enables the regression of communal Oneness, the necessary power for us all to anchor in the New Earth and harmonize with the Great Mother Earth’s shifts into her evolution.

“Either you or another are manipulating the situation to gain an unfair advantage. Make an effort to communicate and return to balance before some harm occurs. Be prepared to accept your place in the imbalance, and, if need be, make amends.”

In resonance with the previous pull, this card is expressing to us the depths of our relationships and the imbalance taking place. Whether the relationship is:

• You and a Lover

• You and Society

• Your Spirit and Your Ego

• Your Ego and Mama Earth

The imbalance is evident, it is screaming to be acknowledged and remedied.

As the last card of today’s preachment, this isn’t an ordinary ending — it is a call to urgent action. The necessity of being aware of psychic bleeds, miasms, siphonic behavior, energy vampires, and the likes is no longer an “oopsie” moment. As we are more than halfway into a 9 year, on this 9 Day, this is a warning for those who Know they are destined for a higher purpose, and continue to allow their self to get in their way. Self wasn’t capitalized in that last sentence because we are talking about the human self — the one who needs to master not being controlled by their Ego, Shadows, and Fears. As you read this, remember:

Your alignment here today is not in vain, it is not a small part of the grand vision. We were destined to cross paths and share this journey for as long as time permits us…This reading is a confirmation that you and I move gracefully between the dimensions that make our reality the human experience we witness, we SEE what is taking place from a Conscious Collective point-of-view and conjure our power and thoughts in healing our body, mind, and Spirit — and that aids the healing of our Collective.

This card in reverse is a wake up call, it is the ending of a spread that said: “Today may be your first Priestess Preachment, but what is to come requires a few things to be released and refined before the Great Mother Earth can root higher energies within her body and aid her children. That is where you come in.”

It is a card of reflective action, taking the initiative to reflect deeply — shadow working is another term I’d use to describe the depths of this energy. It isn’t simply you reflect on the pains, sorrows, or misfortunes…No, darlin’ this is where you give them names and you tell them about their self.

You name your fears of failure until you realize where the source is — your mother, your money, your intellect….then you kiss her goodbye.

You call out past lovers who didn’t have the capacity to love you entirely, until you realize you shrunk to fit in those spaces you were never destined to be in…those places that ache in remembrance, hold them in warmth and forgiveness. Embrace the parts of you that were too open for the lack of love received and know your Love is not too much.

Name the aspects of life you dislike, the ones who slip from the tongue: your job, your neighborhood, your environment —

And ask your self: “If I hate this so much, why do I continue to do it?”

There’s a book called “Existential Kink” by Carolyn Elliot I recommend to those who have never dedicated themselves to a meditative routine, shadow journaling, or affirmative practice. This aids those who do things they hate, without realizing they secretly love to hate them. Whether it is because talking about it gifts them external validation, or allows them sympathy by playing a victim — many don’t realize what actual power is, and continue to feed in to a paradigm that no longer exists without these same dynamics in play. Many are so good at lying to themselves, they forget they were lying in the first place…a Self-inflicted Stockholm syndrome.

This is why many do not conduct their own shadow work, because the accountability tied to it breaks their illusions they fed to themselves to live this societal lie that diminishes joy. I’m not blaming anybody here except the Evils That Be, many of the Conscious Collective have been programmed and derailed from their Divinity before the womb…but the responsibility to be accountable for what happens in their lives is their responsibility.

This reversal card is Saturnian in nature — giving us a brief yet stern warning of what is taking place within as without. It’s not a sweet, sugary warning either, this card is the Last Word and the set stage for this week.

Closing The Portal

There is a New Moon in Cancer at 2:22PM this Thursday — placing the Sun, Moon, and Mercury Rx in Cancer. This is a time for the emotional waters of our home and domestic life to be refreshed, but in order to do so, we need to implement our Capricornian vision of security and success to ensure our New Moon intentions are in alignment with what we desire —> not what we deserve due to not being in alignment. This is true lunar magic.

Our next Priestess Preachment will be next Sun Day at 11:11 AM, but don’t miss our Wednesday Womb Wisdom transmission, we will be talking a bit more about the upcoming New Moon and our group meditation.

Peace, beloved. Stay blessed, stay aware.

✨🙏🏾🧿

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In ode to Saturn in opposition to my Venus,

the Moon in Libra making sweet kisses to transiting Lilith as the transiting Venus is making sexy eyes across the celestial chart to my Pluto in Scorpio…and who can forget the heat that is Mars in Leo…that’s a different type of tease….

Written in ink and tears over five years ago, I want to share a finely aged poem that found me in the shadowy depths that cascaded over what I will learn is the initiation of a rite of passage on erotic healing journey…

I want to preface by stating that I have evolved beyond the measures the young author could fathom — but it doesn’t negate how real and raw her emotions coasted….

I’ll just let the art do the talking.

*inhales*

I just wanna increase my gains,

While you heal my pains,

Never change,

Stay in your lane,

And not play those games…

…But you wanna mope and laze,

Leave me drained,

And drive me insane…

Your pain changed me,

Left me breathless,

Thought you loved me,

But you stole my heart and pawned it…

Sour words can’t express the hatred I have for your face,

Your mother’s place,

Or the time you made me waste…

I was a fool,

Dancing around blindly,

And you gazed at me criticizing..

Judging, budging me out your mind

as a friend that’s now an enemy…

You were a friend to me,

When I felt low, we’d go

Get high in your Buick Lacrosse and

play music…

I was high on your drug,

Under the impression this is Love,

Never realizing you were my plug…

Upping the doses in my veins to see

how far I would go to hear you tell me

you loved me again…

… I was sick,

You twisted my arm until I screamed

in pain and I couldn’t feel it

anymore…

You made me numb to your bullshit.

You made me immune to the dumb shit.

By the time I left, I’ve Head Bitch running shit.

You hated my guts,

Because you knew someone’s son

was going to be so deep in them…

It wasn’t going to be you, and you already hated him…

I controlled your infatuation like a

Joystick in a Ford Mustang…

Whipping reckless doughnuts in your heart…

Hair in the wind as I spin skid marks

where my love used to be.

Don’t take it personally,

It’s just after three years, you’re dead to me.

I hope you have a life, and get some friends.

Maybe a nicer car, I hope the borderline depression ends.

I wish you well…Live it up.

I will too, and when it’s all said and done…

May we not meet in our next lives, hun.

xoxo

“Serpentine sway….sssacral seduction —

The way I move my hipsss

make him forget how to function.

Roll, roll, roll, and sssway…

Make him squirm, make him yearn…

…Make him firm… like warm molded clay.

Give him a smize, he just might swell in size.

Give him a growl, he’ll be on the prowl…

Alwayssss with his eyes on the prize.

🌹

Serpentine sway….sssacral seduction —

the way I lick my lipsss

make his knees completely malfunction…

Roll, roll, roll and POP!

His brows raised, his mouth dropped

Oh boy, he doesn’t want me stop…

With eyes desiring — yearning — for junction.

🌹

“Hey, it’s getting late, wanna go to my place?”

He was serious, by the look on his face.

Poor Joe, he didn’t know

I’m all for the thrill of the chase…

but go back to your place?

🌹

Not a shot…Not a chance, I don’t do that function.

I entice with my spice, my divine sacral seduction.”

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Whimpering for release,

So she can speak,

But darling I am always 5 steps ahead.

Red Thread became my new best friend.

It’s neither hate nor malice.

But she tainted my chalice,

When she knew her reign would end.

Heaven sent and it’s a shame,

you’d rather chase the tricksters

and lose to their shadow games…

There’s power here, a solid truth

a Dark Mother energy, hungry for youth.

Vitality

in spite of me

having nothing but love for you.

I think you get it, I rest my case.

It’s no longer worth the grief,

when I am on a higher plane.

Your shadows will shackle you,

no need to do worse.

Your thoughts drive your mouth,

slipping poison in your words.

What once was a source of healing

is now a source of distortion…

I just want my inherited treasures

and my ancestral fortunes,

and now this distortion is my fuel, my green “GO”

my alchemical fire, honoring my “No.”

I may have your smile, I may have your face,

but I forge my own power, I honor my own tastes,

In your psyche, I may always be second place…

But to know I outlived your mistakes

healed my heart, felt my Soul shake

I am divinely protected, guided…

My embodied fate is my saving grace ❤️‍🔥

“I no longer consent to being a channel for your unlived life.

I bless you, but I do not belong to you.

You do not own my joy, my abundance, my love, or my destiny.”

When it comes to existing as a multi-talented human being, and not recognizing your niche, it can feel like the world is against you. I am a millennial that doesn’t see the “bigger picture” when it comes to working for the man. And I don’t believe I ever will, just from the way I was raised and the choices I made free-willingly about how I am going to live my life wholeheartedly.

I don’t see money as this powerful tool that gets you farther in life, it is hard to do so when you know information about the value of your dollar bill. Money has grown to repulse me in this era due to the fact it can buy so much more than its intended purpose (i.e votes in a competition, audience for a growing business, etc).

I crave the time when people were actually talented, and you didn’t need to have hefty pockets to be considered “talented” to make ends meet.

When your neighbor would also side as a handyman, or you knew someone who was talented in technical writing, babysitting, mechanics – anything.

Now in 2019, everything that is considered a service, talent, or skill needs to be an out-of-pocket expense. Inflation has caused a big riff between being a decent human being and affording to look like one. Status quo and external validation reeks in the air of surrounding starving artists as we can no longer be the visionaries we once imitated from long ago.

Times have changed and technology has taken control over the vast majority of options available to do more. It would seem as if having the internet would be beneficial, but it seems when everything is put onto the internet, some of us who tend to have old-fashioned ways of doing things have to catch up with the ever-changing advances.

A few days ago, while I was out on a shopping trip, I looked around Big Lots and realized I could strive at a quiet retail store such as this. When I asked the cashier about applying, she informed me to go their website and apply online. Now, it wasn’t what she said that deterred me-in fact, I still applied—but it was the inner child in me who was disappointed.

Growing up when I watched my Saturday cartoons on Nickelodeon or Disney Channel, there were a few real-life situations that I had hoped played out the way it did on television when I got old enough. Pipe dreams, but the hope was sincere. I was living under the impression that managers or employee faculty would like to see who they’re hiring and ask questions while in person to judge their demeanor. Never would I think that you apply on the company website and wait to hear back if they would like to interview you. In fact, it seems like a lot harder of a process than the simplicity that was envisioned when implemented.

Some things in this life just don’t feel natural. A lot of life here in the future of what has been would be considered unnatural, but what I am speaking of is on a “human” level. Slowly and surely technology is controlling our lives and causing detrimental consequences to our health – physical, mental, emotional, and for some, maybe all of the above.

We need to know boundaries, we need to know self-preservation. We are distracted and blind to our control of our daily lives, in which is an illusion. If you are really in control of your life the way you believe so, then I do not recommend this article to you.

But if you are like me, where the end of every day reminds you of unhappiness and not living up to your full potential, then continue reading. Here I am going to inform you of a few life-saving tips when you get down in the dumps that have worked for me and continue to work for me to progress in a society in which I have no choice.

Choose You

Sometimes the person who knows you best is you, right? When I feel overwhelmed with an overload of errands, emotions that have went untended, or lacking the accessibility to tell anyone how I feel, I found it best to write out everything that was going on, rather than bottling inside to deal with later.

I realized in doing this exercise, what was affecting me prior no longer felt projected in my actions or socialization throughout the day. I believe a lot of us do not stop to think what better ways we can take care of our mental and emotional health, maybe because it’s not the hottest fad on Twitter or there could be an impending amount of self-doubt that prevents those from merely attempting.

But the best part of this activity is the fact that you are not obligated to share your entries with anyone. What you write in your journal is considered confidential, secret, and sacred. Unless you want to share your experiences, journaling is a great way to gain closure with your Self.

I have been journaling since 2015, I am going to be honest and say I don’t get to do it everyday and as much as I would like to. But when it becomes too much for me to bear, I remember my trustworthy journal has never failed me.

Some days, I have no idea what to write about (which can happen to all of us) and I decide to write about my progression for my future, some thing that may have made my day, or even just type what comes to mind until a topic “sticks”.

Journaling for those of us who do not enjoy writing may be a tedious task at first, but with practice, can be a world of difference for our emotional expression.

Just think about how Facebook asks you “What’s on your mind?” before you type out your latest post. Asking yourself this valid question can be the novice level journaling prompt necessary to stir the passions of getting what you feel out of your head and onto a platform for progressive clarification. Reflecting over how we feel can help get to the source of why we feel this way, what better actions that can be taken to avoid such feeling, and what actions can be taken in a similar situation to prevent a recurrence.

Stop, Listen, & Breathe

Our society is very fast paced; one moment you believe you’re the coolest person with your iPhone XR, and three months later, they are announcing a line of “more advanced” iPhones.

One moment the latest fashion trend is zebra print leggings, and the next it’s glittery blouses. There is literally no winning when you attempt to keep up with others materialistically. There is always going to be something newer, shinier, and equipped with more gadgets. STOP!

Materials cannot fill the void!

Materials will not create inner peace, it is merely impossible. Yes, I completely understand that it is the thought that counts, but the suffering attached to the feeling of boredom after a few months or so never resolves.

We just have too much stuff, too much space. Self-deprecation has become a trend lately on social media, and yet, no one questions why they are doubting themselves so heavily.

You can do everything right, graduate college, get a great paying job, have a surplus of money – but it still doesn’t fix the heart. The mind continues running, “Oh, I have to succeed doing this to get to that so I can do this.”

There is no self-gratitude for the work they did accomplish, there is no internal validation. People spend money, hoping every bill that leaves their hands will somehow magically create the life they envision.

But yet, why is it they are not enough for themselves?

“I wish everyone could become rich and famous, so they could realize it’s not the answer.”

- Jim Carrey

Learn to listen to those words that slip from the mind, recognize what your soul is yearning for.

If you don’t like that job, but it pays well, you are chasing the society-based dream. You are not doing it for the Love of Self, but the Love of Wealth.

We are allowed our own perspective, so hopefully this doesn’t offend anyone when I say: Money is not wealth.

Love is wealth.

Inner peace is wealth.

Yes, there is a lot you can do with money. You can afford a life-saving surgery, you could take someone you really admire out to dinner. I am not saying money is wrong, I like to spend money as well.

But don’t let money dictate your life.

Don’t work a job you don’t like, there is a probable chance when you leave that they can find someone to replace you with the same—if not more—attributes to progress as a business. And if you are someone who works for themselves, I applaud you. It is not easy being your own boss, especially in this economy.

Life is stressful, but it is only that way because it is us who decides how we want to live our life. Are we going to submit to the communistic ways of the government in order to afford newer “luxuries” like our peers, or is it worth it to fight for our rights for peace and tranquility?

When life rubs you the wrong way, just breathe and remember every day has an end. This too shall pass. We need to begin to live in the present moment and not be distracted by those who may own more expensive materials than us.

We all have our flaws, and some people use expensive things to mask those from sight of others. Empathy can go a long way – not just for others, but for ourselves as well. We need to begin to be our own biggest fan, in everything we do.

Try Something New, Alone

I struggled for a long time with doing activities by myself and it even got as bad as deciding to stay home and just have a pity party of one. But when I did decide enough was enough, it wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. We are under a false impression that in order for us to be entertained or enjoy ourselves, we need another person as company or to care about the activity.

External validation is a drug.

Pleading for others to be the “yes” or “no” of your life is going to leave you miserable.

When you learn that you are your first best friend as well as biggest critic, and apply the same perspective to everyone else, you realize that no one knows what the hell they’re doing.

So you may as well do it your way, right?

I started by researching recipes that wouldn’t break my bank but also healthy and delicious. It became a conversation starter amongst the family, and sooner rather than later I realized I chose to be happy in something regardless if someone else wanted to participate or not.

We all have the power to be inspiring to someone else, and this little nugget of experience helped me gain my confidence back in myself.

I grew tired of unsolicited “advice” from people who thought they knew better for me but couldn’t do the same for themselves. I grew tired of the dependence of someone else to enjoy myself.

Go for a walk with no destination.

Sit outside and soak up the sun, treat yourself.

Starting small is not bad, it’s a beginning for different.

That’s the whole point of hitting the reset button.

I wrote this piece back in Vegas when I was going to school while living in a weekly hotel. The setting that took place here is a remembrance for how those of us — who are bound to awaken and experience a cosmic existence — tend to live lives that materialistically “contain less” than others who may live in a deeper alignment with society. I’m not as bothered by my past as I was when I lived through the day to day, trying to make sense of Sin City and the means to escape a cesspool I never chose to begin with.

I remember muting the TV come commercial time, I remember counting how many commercials were strictly fast food restaurants and what they were saying to reel in customers — especially since I was struggling in a food desert, I had an attitude and this attitude is very Venus in Virgo coded — deeply based in attention to detail and prejudice against what is against Earth Mama.

There will need to be vast changes if there is to be a future planet to leave for the next generation. People have become comfortable with society pleasing at hand and foot with improving the ease of chores, errands, and duties than ever before. But is there any speculation how some things come as easy as they do, and what harm those may bring to the environment - or even worse – to society’s health? Is there a second thought to how, with changes, can come chaos without order?

One of the most impeding real-life situations that is being swept under the rug and hidden is nutrition. Every other 30 seconds or so, during a commercial break, initiates brainwashing of patrons with beef, bacon, and cheese. Candy, chips, or sodas. When listening closely, not one statement during the commercial mentions being good for the overall health, just how good it may taste. Many do not know, but commercials are no longer for prolonging health – just lessening life expectancy. If there is no action soon, children will die before their parents.

The fast food industry is a complex web, similarly like the pharmaceutical and the healthcare industry. These three industries work hard to make sure people stay sick, in order for the corporations to continue racking in the money. It runs like a hamster on a wheel, where the food corporations are the hamster, the wheel is the healthcare industry and the kibble that energizes the hamster is the pharmaceutical industry.

Like other major corporations that reign in the United States, the food industry must also prioritize their stockholders and their financial return. Not only must they make profits, but corporations are forced to meet quarterly growth targets that are enforced by Wall Street. (qtd. in Ludwig, Nestle 1809)

Ultimately, corporations are left with two options being able to accomplish their goal: convince customers to eat more food or to increase profit margins which can be completed by rebranding and repackaging products. Americans already eat more calories than necessary in the daily intake without any concern to their health. Manipulating people to spend more money on food may be tricky if corporations do not want to pour more money into products when products sell currently without any extra assistance.

So why not lower prices?

Why not hand out coupons to make people believe they are getting a deal? When in reality, damage to long-term health makes them more money.

When thinking about how the long term effect from fast foods may not show immediate symptoms, fast food industries do not have the best methods of maintaining or distributing their assets. The sadistic acts that are conducted in order to make products for fast food and grocery stores are barbaric and carry a lack of morality. Many times, diseased cows and chickens are left to die in their own feces and filth while those who seem to be “healthier” are stuffed in small crates or slots and continuously tortured and broken beginning their end of days.

Leaked videos from undercover farm workers depict the abuse farm animals are forced to suffer before becoming another quarter pounder at McDonald’s. Baby calves are stomped until they are lifeless, cows are dehorned by a piping hot pair of shears without any anesthetics and their tails are cut off as well.

In America, it seems to be an “outta sight, outta mind” mindset that seems to be consistent in many different departments. But along the lines of our food, people do not strive to chase what is good for health, but what is good to the taste buds. That is where people lose the fight on food. People can continue to be swindled by food corporations because they know exactly what it would take to have people coming back: a new flavor.

Marketing is the lifeline for food corporations. And with technological advancements, it has become easier than ever with social media and email newsletters. America needs to take back health and make food whole again. If it is not for the animals, which some people do tend to care less, people must do it for the children.

Child obesity is growing rapidly, and the culprit is no other than food. Fast food — chips, candy, soda, pizza to be specific — have a greater impact on health than they have since the 1970’s. In fact, those numbers have tripled since then; meaning 1 in 5 school aged children and also young adults between the ages of 6 and 19 have obesity. (CDC Healthy Schools, Childhood Obesity Facts)

With electronic entertainment becoming more adamant in normal life routine, children are not getting the necessary exercise to burn the calorie intake and results in fat. Diabetes used to be known as an “adult-onset condition”, but with the increase in obesity in youth, diabetes has been a growing concern amongst children as well.

Type 2 diabetes is a condition that affects how the body absorbs and consumes sugars. With type 2 diabetes, the body will either not produce enough insulin to regulate glucose levels or your body resists the insulin which is productive in assisting to regulate movement of sugar in the cells. This is very serious due to the fact there is no cure for type 2 diabetes, but studies have shown that eating healthy, maintaining decent weight, and exercising can help stabilize the disease. (Mayo Clinic)

Pre-diabetes plays a major factor in type 2 diabetes; having high blood sugar levels that go left untreated tend to be the biggest symptom for type 2 diabetes. The body converts liquid sugars into fats when the blood sugar is too high, in addition to lack of exercise, is a recipe for long term illness.

Children are dying before they get the opportunity to live. Is this the work of changes in the American standards?

Has society set up a death trap where there is no escape?

Are people willing to exchange their commitments to fast food for their well-being?

Their children’s?

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References

• Ludwig DS, Nestle M. Can the Food Industry Play a Constructive Role in the Obesity Epidemic? JAMA. 2008;300(15):1808–1811. doi:10.1001/jama.300.15.1808

• “Obesity Facts.” Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, 29 Apr. 2019, www.cdc.gov/healthyschools/obesity/facts.htm.

• “Type 2 Diabetes.” Mayo Clinic, Mayo Foundation for Medical Education and Research, 9 Jan. 2019, www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/type-2-diabetes/symptoms-causes/syc-20351193.

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